I’ve been keeping my phone on airplane mode for nearly 2 days now, and I’m thinking of keeping it that way. I think that I might want to stay off any social medias (including this blog) for a certain period of time.
It’s not that I’m not in a good mood or such, I’m perfectly fine. It’s just that I think I’m pretty much overwhelmed by my surroundings for now. Until I’m feeling better, I might keep my airplane mode on.
Yesterday was kind of hard for me, since my friends were venting, reaching out for me but I couldn’t be there for them. I know that it was not appropriate for me to act as such, but I can’t pour from an empty cup. If I’m not feeling good, how am I supposed to make others feel better as well? I just think that my act of selfishness for this time around is 60% justified. I still pity them, of course, but what can I do?
So yeah, that’s it! Take care, my lovelies. Remember that you can’t pour from an empty cup. Prioritise yourself first, no matter what. You might think that it’s selfish, but it’s not. Really 🙂
I, personally, noticed how people nowadays aren’t as grateful as they are supposed to. Instead, they keep on comparing themselves with those who are far more superior than them. “Why can’t I be as pretty as her?” “Why can’t I have the same wealth as others?”. All of these whys, they’re not healthy for us, my lovelies. Because a) you’ll have a higher tendency to feel insecure, inferior and sad and also b) you’ll never ever ever ever everrr feel satisfied with what you have, you’ll keep on wanting more and more and more and it’ll be an endless cycle for you, also not to forget c) you’ll keep on questioning things that you shouldn’t.
Now now, it’s not that I’ve never been in this situation before. In fact, I still do. I still compare my beauty with others who are far prettier than me. BUT, I’m trying to keep it under control.
A way that I think can help us to keep on being grateful is to list out everything that we have (even if it’s the smallest thing ever). We’ll notice things that we haven’t before. Hence, here I’ll start with my list first (I won’t list out everything here, obviously. That’ll consume a lotttttt of space)
I have functional parts of body
I have an amazing family (including my cat)
I have amazing friends
I already have my ambition and targets set up
I can do chores without complaining (in fact, i like to do chores)
I have my debate team
I’m still able to perform my prayers
I can still help my friends when they need my help
I can create jokes easily
I have people that i can look up to
You see, sometimes we tend to forget about these small things but let’s admit it here : your life won’t be the same without these small lil things. You might be miserable without ’em. Hence, let’s improve ourselves day by day by being more grateful 🙂
If you’re a Believer, remember this. When we are grateful for what we have at the moment, keep in mind that Allah will give you more 🙂 after all, He’s the one who controls and have everything 🙂
“Wake up in the morning and end your day with a grateful heart”
Some of us, including me, when we love someone we tend to forget the true meaning of it. We tend to think that “ok so this person is mine and no one shall take this person away from me”. We’ll do whatever that we can just in order for that person to stay and stick with us. But is that the true meaning of love?
Ever since little, I had this mindset in which ‘my best friend can only have one friend and that one friend should be me’. I thought that IF the people that I love found other people, they’ll soon forget about me and leave me alone. Hence I kept on conquering them without knowing how wrong it was. I thought that it’s okay to act as such, to feel afraid of losing someone that you love.
Somehow one day, I stumbled upon this one video made by this one guy. He said “if you keep on thinking that this person belongs to you, is that loving? Or is it owning?”. That part hit me hard. Then I started to think back about things that I did to people that I love. I kept on controlling them , having these thoughts that I own them. Do I truly love them or am I just owning?
That was the moment in which I started to realise that what I’ve been doing all this while was wrong. I shouldn’t be controlling them. They should have the freedom, because that is what love is about. It’s about trust and freedom.
“What if the person you love run away and leave you alone?” Well, I guess that it’s fine. Because this is about the people that I love. As long as they’re happy, and they have the freedom that they need, then that’s fine by me. In fact, I’ll be happy for them too. Because I love them. I don’t want to own them just for the sake of having them in my life.
Now, I’m starting to let people go as they please, but I have to admit that it’s hard. However, I’ll try to fix that because as I said just now, I love them. I don’t want to own them. “To love, is not to own. To love, is to trust and to give freedom” 🙂
It’s 1.31 AM now, according to my digital clock. I would usually write entries when it’s plus minus 3 AM, but I really need to get this out sooner.
So, have you ever felt suddenly angry, annoyed, pissed off, etc at someone or something? Sometimes without any valid reasons at all? It’s okay, it’s not perfectly fine but it’s okay cause that’s normal. We all do that sometimes. I’ve been in high dudgeon for these past few days to be honest. I got mad and annoyed easily over petty things (kinda caused people around me to keep their distance for a while though) and in my opinion, that wasn’t cool and nice of me. Hence, to keep things under control I’ve been practicing these few rules whenever I’m about to get mad at some things.D
Da 4 minutez rule
I can’t quite recall as to where I heard about this rule but it’s very easy to digest it. If you’re feeling mad or angry at anything, just apply this rule. It’s called 4 minutez rule because during the first 4 minutes, you can be all angry you want (avoid being too violent though) since that anger, is valid. However, if you’re still mad or angry after the first 4 minutes passed, it’s better to just drop it. It’s not worth it since the anger is no longer valid. It’s just YOU feeling that you SHOULD be angry about it (but not really).
Why are ya mad, really?
After the four minutes passed, time to think. Calmly. Think, ‘wait, why am I mad again?’. This part is sort of complicated for me to explain it in words, hence I’ll provide a diagram down below 🙂
Positive vibes, attack me please
Sometimes, all you need is some space for you to work on with your thoughts. The world may be moving way too fast for you and that’s why you’re a little bit pissed off or grumpy. It’s okay 🙂 Go and listen to your favourite songs, read books, doodles, anything that can make you feel better (read : calm). This will be in the past and you’ll be okay :))
These are the steps that I apply whenever things are about to go bad for me. This doesn’t mean that I don’t get angry at all, I still do. But these steps do help me to cool down a bit and I hope that they can help you too 🙂 Oh and while I was doing some research for this topic, I found a quote and it went like this
Pessimism never won any battle
-Dwight D. Eisenhower
By being angry, you’ll also be surrounded by negativities automatically. And pessimism never won any battle 🙂 Remember to control your own fire or you might burn everything down.
With this type of world that we’re living in, I understand why there are lots of people who are sad, stressed and even depressed. I know that sometimes, in life, you feel like everything is wrong, and suddenly you think that you have no one to rely on. I know that at one point in life, you feel that life is being unfair to you. You go everywhere, and you get envy because all that you see is people living their best life. Sometimes you might even ask “Why can’t I be as happy as the rest?”
I know that I’m not a saint, holy, or even a decent person to talk about religion or verses in Quran. But I also like to believe that it’s my duty as a muslim to spread positivity and hope for other people that need it.
When there’s hardship, surely ease will follow after that. If you think that your life sucks at this moment, or if you think that everything’s not going well for you, remember these 2 verses. Allah promised that whenever there’s hardship, there will be ease coming for you. And Allah didn’t only promise you that, He promised twice.
If you keep on wondering when will this end for me? When will I be happy?
Be patient. I know it’s hard for you, trust me, I’ve been there. I know how it consumes a lot of energy for you to just get out of bed every day and how you feel weak all of the time. But please, be patient. It’ll be worth it. Allah is the one who created us, He knows what we need and what we want. Have faith in life, that He won’t ignore us. He’s the most merciful, more than you can ever imagine. Bear that in mind.
Whoever that’s reading this, if you are facing any hardships in your life, i pray that happiness will follow you soon enough. You are strong and you can do this. Put your trust in Him and only Him. I can’t stress enough but I really hope that you can put your trust in Him, and stay strong since good things will happen to you very soon.
I have so many great quotes about being kind since I just love the vibe, the ideas about it, you know? Sometimes great quotes really get me wondering, pondering for hours.
This is one of the quotes that I keep holding onto, cause it’s very short but yet very precise. Whenever I’m about to say something or do something, the first thing that will come into my mind would be firstly “be kind”. So instead of punching someone’s throat, I would be able to calm myself down and just smile and nod.
This quote sort-of help me to control myself in the way I speak, I act, and how I am as a person. It’s not that I’m totally a saint, but yeah, this helps and I hope that it can help others to become a better person too 🙂
You don’t lose anything by being kind, thus, be kind :))
I’m trying to keep my new blog alive here, hence I decided to come up with the “60 things” in which I’ll list out 60 things that are related to me. This will be a super boring entry, but apparently, I don’t care. So here goes nothing :))
I like to sniff new books, they have a nice smell
I hate to highlight books, they’ll get all messed up
Sometimes I’m not even listening to songs, I just like to wear earphones most of the time. It makes me feel safe lol (or I just don’t want to talk)
Reading has been a part of me since I was 7
I used to hate One Direction cause I thought that One Direction is just another Korean boyband (my bad)
I had a serious caffeine problem 4 years ago (I used to drink more than 5 cans per day)
children books with pictures and colors calm me
I don’t like movies that are too vulgar
When I was 6 (or 7), I was the queen of all jiwang melayu songs
I hate to admit it but I kinda have a soft spot for pink color
My first pet was a rabbit, who later died because of main hujan
One time, the sensor at Toys’r’us made that alarm sound when I walked pass by it (because I brought in my plastic bag). Until now I’m still traumatized by the sound of it. I’ll get all tensed when I’m near that thing lol
I have trust issues. like seriously, you could be planning to kill me at this moment. no one knows.
If people reply to my message with a ‘k’, I would be really offended. No kidding.
I’m not a morning person (tegur me at 7am and you’ll get death glare from me)
Char kueyteow all the way baby
My phones when I was in primary school were Nokia 3310, Sony Ericsson and Blackberry. Good old time
I don’t like to talk. Text me if anything.
I’m good at ignoring people in real life.
I love to doodle
Literature book that has a special place in my heart is Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte
I was a die-hard fan of Hannah Montana and when Taylor Swift made a cameo in Hannah Montana movie, I went crazy for it.
People keep on saying that my jokes are ‘hambar’. But let’s just admit it that they love it
I. Hate. Crowds.
Spicy foods suck
air suam is the best
I have a thing for cute bracelets ❤
I look uglier with makeup on
I’m all shy, no kidding
Mario will be my fav game forever
People who talk a lot in real life kind of annoyed me
If I can stay at a certain year, it would be 2014
I like to listen to Lany, Robinson, Billie, The 1975
Loud noises scare me
I hate glitters
I had my first facebook when I was in standard 1
soft toys make me feel safe
In total, I have 4 twitters, 4 facebooks, and 6 email accounts (I only remember 3 of em)
“if the food is too far, I’m ready to starve myself”
I just love unicorns
I have my bantal busuk ever since I was 5 years old until now
I like to go through pocket dictionaries
Bright colors are not for me
It’s hard for me to say no to people
I can’t cook (if we are married, our house needs to be near with mamak)
I’m the easiest one in the family to get sick
Nigahiga is my favorite youtuber ever since I was a kid
People who gossip a lot gain the least trust from me
Not a fan of Harry Potter
I don’t like kids
I cry for every single movie. EVERY. SINGLE. ONE
I don’t have high self esteem. I just pretend that I have one when in need
My height is 152 and my weight is 45 (any tips on how to get taller and skinnier?)
My level of malas is just so high.
I started blogging when I was in standard 3(was forced to have one by ibu to improve my language efficiency)
Not a fan of kpop and anime, sorry not sorry
I used to have serious shopping issue. Thank god now I’ll only spend my money on food
Talking bout food, I also have dietary problem. lol
I hate museums, sorry not sorry
I don’t like Hunger Games
So I guess that’s that. It’s 4.35 am now, better get some sleep.
Hi guys! I’m still new to WordPress, but I have been a blogger for quite a long time now. Used to use Blogger (you know, that Google blog thingy with orange icon on top), but somehow I guess I should try something new.
My old blog was called “brokenunikorn” and if you’re lucky enough, you might find it (since most of the people couldn’t find my blog).
However for my WordPress, I decided that I should try to come out with something that reflects me. Awkward Waffle is simply because I’m really awkward. Like hell, if you see me anywhere, pretend that you don’t know me. And for waffle, damn I just love waffles. Especially if they’re served with peanut butter. WAFFLES FOR LYFE MAN!
Back to my main story, am still trying to figure out my way here. So far I noticed that WordPress is much more complex comparing to Blogger and this blog is pretty much empty for now. I will try to update as frequent as I can. Not that I’m expecting for a lot of people to be reading my blog though, since I’m using this blog as my sort-of-diary. But just incase, if someone finds my blog to be interesting. *weird*
Currently it’s 3.36 am and it’s really weird that I can process things when it’s 3 in the morning.